do what makes you happy

Truly. You should do what makes you happy, content, joyful, exultant, ecstatic, jovial and full of beans (my thanks extended also to Roget). If I know anyone in my life who deserves to just ignore "shoulds", it is certainly you. Shoulda, coulda, woulda-- who cares? You have no obligation to them or me or anyone else to do anything outside of what you want. Let's be honest, hedonism is everyone's ultimate motivation! You, at least, have the right to indulge yourself!